Chapter 4
She slammed the front door so hard the framed photographs along the hallway rattled on their hooks.
The silence that followed was heavy, almost physical. Iris’s cries gradually tapered off into breathless, hitching sobs, her tiny nose buried against the warm skin of my neck. I stood completely still in the middle of the room for a long moment, waiting for the wave of guilt, shame, or regret to wash over me. I waited for the familiar, painful knot in my stomach to tighten, telling me to chase after her, to apologize, to wire the money just to keep the peace.
It never came.
Instead, a profound, deep breath filled my chest—the first full, unobstructed breath I felt like I had taken in years. The air in the room felt lighter, cleaner. The oppressive weight that had rested on my shoulders since I was a teenager—the burden of managing adults who refused to grow up—simply evaporated.
I walked slowly over to the front door, pushed it shut, and engaged the heavy deadbolt with a firm, decisive click.
I walked back to the nursery, sat down in the gliding armchair, and began to gently rock my daughter. I rocked her until her frantic breathing synchronized with mine, until her tight little fists uncurled and rested softly against my collarbone.
“I’ve got you,” I whispered into the soft fuzz of her head. “Nobody is ever going to use you. Nobody is ever going to make you feel like you owe them your life.”
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My phone, resting on the coffee table in the living room, began to vibrate again. I could hear it buzzing against the wood—a continuous, desperate rhythm. I knew what it was. Rachel calling to enforce the damage control, followed by texts from aunts, cousins, and distant relatives who had been mobilized into Diane’s flying monkey brigade.
I didn’t rush to answer it. I didn’t feel a single prick of panic.
